Okay so.... I havent updated this in awhile because I have been a busy bee this summer and no one seems to leave me comments  Okay whatever. Ummm..life is still going grrrreat i having a very evenful summer .. wow!! hope everyone had a good 4th of july! and thats about it! bye bye!

Summer is the shizz still wich im totally happy about because its 100 times better  than last summer!

getting caught by the rents making out in the basement  not good at all!
and to make it even worse we couldnt see each other until yesterday. which happened a week ago from yesterday. and he so sweet that we snuck around seeing eachother through like throughout the week. hehehe

I can now officaly drive! went to driving school for a whole week omgosh but luckly i had a friend in there so we just kinda talked and goof off the whole time and he helped me study for those stupid test i was just ready give up on! so yea its all good! but now i have my permit and ready to drive! hahahahhah! lol!

so yesterday i went to see a movie and stuff been busy! hahah! yauh!

Hey. Umm so today was okay.. would have been better if my mom would have let me go the to the movies with some friends but nooo she said that i havent been home in awhile and i need to "chill out" w/e.

and the guy i like is going omgosh! I can't believe it. I mean I could tell that he really wanted me to go and my mom ruined it for me! ggr i want another mom. a mom thats cool with stuff and easy going. I think it's because im the baby of the family and she doesnt wont to grow up but whatever! She wanted me to get out of the house and do stuff so I just don't understand

Umm last I slept AWFUL! woke a TON of times omgosh the worst sleep ever!  And now im sitting here bored! when i could have been at the movies having fun! but noooo! GRRRRR

SUMMER IS THE SHIZZZ ....right now it is but im living it up! 

ello!! okay so  this weekend was the BEST  way to kick off the summer! omgosh i couldnt ask for a better weekend.
Okay so Friday (26th) My sister left for the beach (grr) but my friend and her little brother and mom came and got me for some ice cream and i desided to spend the night there.. and that night i met this guy Ryan! And there was this other guy with him and like "who is that" and i didnt tell who it was till he got closer and then i was like he's my ex.. haha at first i didnt know who he was!  
Saturday - I went to a baseball game (little leage) aww it was so cuute watching them ..i have say to was a very intence game! and then went home!
Sunday - went to church with my mom and came home and ate lunch & stuff and then got ready to go the pool!! yeauh! lol ! and the guys show up again  and i was getting thrown around ... nothing new there! and spent the night at my friends again
Monday - woke up and got ready and everything and went to the poool! and spent the night again!
Tuesday - a GRRRREAT DAY thats i gotta say! sooooo MUCH FUUUUUNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeeee 

<3 I LOVE YOU!

Hi.
School is comming to an end. Senoiors are gone. Today was their last day....  
There was ONE senior who was like my brother. He said good - bye..no hug...no nothing.  I have known him now for 3 years. We have gotten so close but then fell alittle part and then got close again, near the end of school.
We had so many good laughs together. It took me three months to talk to him. And I fianlly did. And I am so happy that I did. 
Before he left he said  "bye and MAYBE see you this summer", I wanted to cry and give a big hug right then and there. But he just left ..and then I said "bye"  From the first day of school I knew he was leaving and not to get so close to him. And the day has come. The last time I saw him was when I was walking back up to the school from outside and he said bye once more and I said bye to someone else to and that was it.................. 

Jayshree

Hey. So I'm so mad at my dad right now. First of all he sold the white car we had. And I loved that car. Now we have a Spider that's only a two seater car! I mean yea that car is cool and everything but it was so unessary!  
But the other night my dad said that when I'm ready to drive he'll get me a car!  

Well anywyas i gotta clean my room up! bye!

Love Ya!!

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   It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken........

tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know - that leads to anywhere
Without a light feat that I will - stumble in the dark
Lay right down - decide not to go on ....

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head.....

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me...

I could loose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
Coz the way I feel
I might loose control and let you stay
Coz I could take you in my arms and never let go...